As a nurse I tend to a vast variety of patients, all ages, cultures, creeds, but still all human beings- all mortal. I have found myself come across things in the medical field that may be deemed "unfair" by others, situations that are unfortunate and heart wrenching- and yet, I have to find a way to bring light to the dark......
I would be lieing if I said that I completely understand why people who are young die everyday from unfortunate illnesses, accidents, happenings, or merely from being born into a certain kind of life, I, just like many others- may never completely understand all that this world is made up of & why. I can recall taking care of a two week old infant once, that had been taken away from its mother/due to her drug abuse during her pregnancy, the infant was experiencing withdrawls/constant pain, and as his nurse it was my duty to comfort the infant until it passed away-due to an uncontrollable hemmoraging (bleeding) in the brain. Though I knew that this life's journey was going to be short-lived, I was determined to give positive to that life, and in return I feel like that child did even more for me. Each day with that life was a real life lesson and realization that we, as people, have no control over what we are brought into, each day with that infant made me think about my own life, and the cards that I had been dealt. As human beings we are all born into something different. Some of us are born into loving families, while others maynot be. We are born into different cultures, races, ethnicities- all being beyond our control/ and yet some of us are still judged over the fact. Some of us are born into wealth, into poverty, big families, small families, possibly even into having no family at all. Tending to this infant made me realize that even on my absolute worst days- I am blessed. I get to wake up to see the sunshine, feel the wind on my face, go for a walk, and this child would never get to do that, the simple things that we all take for granted most days. This child wouldn't get the chance to learn how to read, graduate from high school, go to prom, know what it is to fall in love, or get married. This child was oblivious to the stock market, the wars, the economy, or the job market- because all it had ever felt since arriving in this world- had been pain, it knew nothing else. This child was sedated for the majority of its existence, it may not have heard my words of encouragement, or the songs that I would sing, maybe it didn't feel me holding it/my touch- but a life that was only 2 weeks old- left an impression on my heart that will last until my last days on this earth......
Just as this infant didn't ask to be born into drug abuse, we are each dealt our own cards in this life. I can say with an open heart today that if you are dealt some difficult cards in this life, and you are blessed with health, don't waste it, not everyone is so fortunate. I have been fortunate to have thirty years of life: thirty years of laughter, of smiles, of pain, of growth, of evolving, of learning, and even if that is all I am given- it is still more than that child got. You have to find the beauty through the pain, the humility in each life that touches your own, and remain hopeful that you are able to see the omens/the signs in front of your eyes that attempt to show you how lucky you are. In some religions there are beliefs that we as people never truly die because our souls are ancient, and when our body passes away it is buried into the earth, leaving our remains to settle into the soil, which then goes into the grass, and the flowers, whose petals go into the sky, and decend into the clouds- so in this way, those who die never truly leave us, they are all around us, in every moment. It's a beautiful way to look at something that we each fear so much. I have no proof if this is indeed what happens after our departure from this life, but I can only hope that something equally as beautiful was bestowed upon that child that I took care of, may he be at peace where ever he is, we were meant to cross paths for a reason, I truly believe that & I am greatful for our time spent together.
For my life and for all others, I can only hope that you each find the beauty in everyday occurences, the simple things in life that can be taken away at any time. As a parent- love your children for who they are, because they never truly belong to you, they are simply lent to you by God, when you realize that you don't take a moment for granted, they can be life's greatest teachers. No matter what you are born into, know that everyday you have choices, options, chances to make changes, to do better than yesterday. Just because you may have been born into a dysfunctional situation- doesn't mean that you can't have what you've always dreamed of one day, you can change things for the better, we all deserve happiness. We are all capable of happiness.
Yes, I can admit that there have been times in my own life when I have been dealt difficult cards- and finding the light seemed close to impossible, but looking at those times now- I can appreciate them for giving me growth and bringing me to where I currently stand in my life. I realize now that every kind of pain that I had to endure in this life has helped to mold who I am, and how I am. If I hadn't been dealt difficult cards I would be oblivious to many things in life, and not able to hold the same appreciation in my heart that I do for everyday occurences. Just to wake up to each morning is a blessing, if you get that opportunity- turn it into something beautiful, be blessed, and pass the blessings onto others, pass kindness onto others, pass humility onto others, pass compassion onto others. As a thirty year old woman, it was a 2 week old life that opened me up to question myself about things I never knew about myself, to ask myself things that I had never previously asked myself. If that was the reason that we crossed paths- then I am humbled and thankful for that messenger, I can only hope to be as fortunate to touch others lives/the way that mine was touched.
Be Blessed.
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